This is not the sound of a new man or crispy realization

This is a product of being awake for 17 hours, working a 10 hour shift, Christmas shopping, 2 mochas, studying for Christology final, fooling around with the idea of a 10 page paper, and being left alone... If I was left alone for a week.. Oh my gosh don't leave me alone for a week.

My Idea was that I was a figment of God.. I started looking up defintions.
Figment: An Invention; a fiction; something invented or devised. Fiction: A creation of the imagination. Feign: Touch, form, mold, conceive, devise, stroke, smear-- to put on an appearance of or pretend-- to make believe; pretend. Imagined: To form a mental image of something not actually present to the senses; represent to oneself in imagination, conceive; to assume or suppose; conjecture or guess; think, beieve, or fancy. To form mental images of things not present to the senses; exercise the imagination, suppose. There are some verses that always stay with you in your mind. One of them for me is the verse about how life is just a vapor. Life is so short so what in the world am I doing here making flashcards while there are children in other countries who are sent to fight a war and can't even hold up a gun? Why am I even sitting here writing these words? A vapor makes me feel like I'm not real or if I am real than life is super surreal beacause poof I'm here poof I'm gone. Ok, I'm not crazy I know I'm real. I'm just trying to make sense out of my late night thoughts. I am most of the defintions. What's the difference between imagination and dreams? I had to at some point be imagined by God. Why do we encourage imagination so much? We play with the word negatively and positevly. We encourage people to imagine but when we voice our imagination we look down with our voice by saying, "Oh you were just imagining things...." If we imagine and voice it as a dream or ambition is it any different? Am I an imagination? Am I an imagination with an imagination? How do I become real? :) Thanks for bearing with me even though there aren't any bears here....

Thanks all two of my readers... Sarena and my Mom :) ha